THE LAST VESTIGES OF NORMALCY!
Monday, October 31, 2011
Disipline and Commitment Unplugged
I was on another "page" for a while, mostly unwritten but thoroughly experienced.
My year of travelling has wound down and I am home in Saskatoon for the winter. I haven't even put all the photos up on the blog yet but I will finish that off soon.
One incredible thing I did in August this year was attend a 10-ceremony Ayahuasca tour at Blue Morpho in Peru. It was my best tour ever and almost impossible to describe.
Every once in a while though, someone writes something nice which helps provide a clearer picture of what Ayahuasca Shaminism is and why people go there.
Here is an article called Mareado On The Nauta Road . Mareado, is what you are after an Ayauhasca ceremony when still feeling the effects such as mild visual disturbances. The Nauta Road is the road from Iquitos to the Blue Morpho Camp. The article is a guest post by Chris Kilham on the Dawn On The Amazon website. Dawn On The Amazon offer tours and they have a very nice restaurant with outside seating in the shade. Their Captain's Blog contains interesting stories from the region.
Chris Kilham is the founder of the Ayahuasca Test Pilots. He is the FOX News Medicine Hunter, and travels regularly to Peru. He has a web site called Medicine Hunter.
So that's my story. I had great intentions of writing and channelling lots but I guess life just goes where it goes. How do I ever manage to hold a job??? I am home for the winter though and I feel that commitment building again. Wheee!
Saturday, August 20, 2011
The lyrics from a Pink song
Life is a dance floor
Love is the rhythm
You are the music
Life is a dance floor
You get what you're given
It's all how you use it
Friday, June 17, 2011
Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism
I really love this article. It is presented through Buddhist philosophy but the ideas could stand alone, they make so much sense.
Various traps that spiritual practitioners fall into are investigated -- such as confusing temporary bliss or tranquility with the awakened state of mind.
I particularly like this paragraph:
"We must surrender our hopes and expectations, as well as our fears, and march directly into disappointment, work with disappointment, go into it and make it our way of life, which is a very hard thing to do. Disappointment is a good sign of basic intelligence. It cannot be compared to anything else: it is so sharp, precise, obvious and direct. If we can open, then we suddenly begin to see that our expectations are irrelevant compared with the reality of the situations we are facing. This automatically brings a feeling disappointment.
Disappointment is the best chariot to use on the path of the dharma. It does not confirm the existence of our ego and its dreams."
Visit the home page at http://www.ayahuasca-wasi.com/
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
What does being in the "now" mean to you?
I am loving this piece because it shows how what we think contradicts what we feel.
It is written by Cory Dean Smith entitled Dependability from his blog Cory Dean Smith . com
Friday, April 22, 2011
Sharpen the Stick
We met through the Spiritual Experiences of Meditation group we both belong to and she channeled this poem during an exercise in channeled writing.
It surprised her to receive a complete piece of poetry in only ten minuets as it seemed to just write itself.
Sharpen the Stick
Sharpen the stick
Poke out your eye
Ring the bell
and blindly fly...
You are spirit
You are fire
Water, earth and clay
Run like the wind… play
Gather spirits
To your table
Make them comfortable
You are able
Sing some praises
Look at scenes
Feel cold water
Drown in seams
What you need
You will get
Death and loving
No regret
Go and scatter
Ash to the wind
Blind no more
Your bell will ring
Lanne is also an accomplished artist and writer.
You can view her art on her website, Broken Heart Studio.
You will find the artistic rendering of the poem there too. Look under "her art"....."pen and ink".
SHAMANISM AND THE SHADOW
There are many misconceptions regarding what a Shaman does and this article explains it clearly, noting the differences between a healer, shaman and a sorcerer.
If you enjoyed the article you can read more on the Facebook page of Witchy's Nexus Shamanism. Just click the title of this article.
1. The Shadow Side of Human Consciousness
The purpose of Shamanism is to integrate conflicting aspects of the human psyche with each other, and the whole with the Cosmic Psyche, and to develop the power and self-knowledge to enable the shaman to achieve results that are beyond the abilities of the undeveloped, un-self-aware psyche.
Integrating conflicting aspects of the human psyche is the basis of all character development, and is essential to achieving balance and happiness.
It releases and channels those potentially limitless psychic powers that are inherent in all of us.
The difference between a healer and a shaman is that a healer is a person who is able to use the forces of light to effect a cure in the body, mind, or spirit of another, without using the forces of the Shadow.
Because of the nature of some illnesses, this method is not always effective, and a shaman must be sought for a cure.
A shaman is a healer who has walked up to the Underworld gates of his/her own personal hell and then walked in.
He/she has confronted and conquered his/her self-created demons, such as fear, insanity, loneliness, self-importance, and addictions, has unflinchingly confronted his/her own Shadow self as well as the evil of others, and can successfully deal with forces of darkness equally with those of light.
A shaman can do exorcisms and can reverse hexes and the results of black arts that have been used on a patient, because by dealing with one's own Shadow and coming to terms with that Shadow self, one gains peace of mind and balance, and the black arts have no control over that person, for his/her personal fears and inner demons have already been dealt with.
Both the shaman and the healer can effect cures, but only the shaman is trained in dealing with any type of black arts that may have caused illness.
For clarification, a shaman is not a sorcerer, one who is trained in and uses only the black arts to accomplish their purposes.
Many people in today's society are calling themselves shamans without any knowledge of exactly what this means.
If the would-be shaman does not have the ability to look at his/her own shadow side, he/she will not be able to follow the path of the shaman.
He/she would never be able to confront or handle the results and/or intentions of the black arts.
A shaman's medicine colors are black and white because he/she walks the world of Light as well as Shadow - the polarity of man's existence.
Black and white also represents the balance a shaman seeks to maintain, both inside himself/herself as well as bringing that balance to his/her clients.
It is well expressed in the Eastern concept of yin-yang.
Bat is the Mayan and Aztec symbol for rebirth, and the totem animal for shamanism.
Bat hangs upside down in the cave, just as humans are nestled upside down in their mothers' wombs.
In leaving the womb or the cave, each is forced to look at light and shadow.
Bat embraces the idea of the Shaman's death.
In ancient traditions, the would-be-shaman was sent to a certain location to dig his/her own grave, and then spent the night inside that grave, totally alone.
The grave opening was supported by limbs, covered by a blanket, and then filled over with dirt and debris.
Absolute darkness and total silence quickly cause the initiate to be confronted by his/her fears.
The basic idea of the initiation was to break down all former notions of "self", and to cause the initiate to face his/her inner fears and demons.
When the initiate is released from the grave, the old persona and ways of life of the one "who was put in in the ground" truly are dead and buried.
A "new" person emerges, reborn, with the right BY INITIATION to be called a shaman, and to heal.
During my initiation, I spent three days and two nights totally isolated within the grave, and it truly is a terrifying experience.
In modern times, as with so many ancient rituals and initiations, the Shaman's Death is considered by society as too severe and dangerous, and so the actual rite is seldom seen or heard of.
the right to be called a shaman is no less contingent on the notion of the death of the old "self" than it was in ancient times.
One does not choose to walk the path of a shaman, the Spirits call a person to walk the path of a shaman, usually by a traumatic, life-altering experience.
This experience may be sufficient to constitute an initiation; however, the psychiatric wards are full of uninitiated shamans, who had a traumatic experience and no one to guide them to understanding!
The understanding unfolds as we work with the Shadow self.
The Underworld is the arena.
Because the shaman has walked through the Underworld of the Shadow and knows firsthand the pain involved in breaking the stranglehold of inner darkness, a true shaman always has compassion for the paths that others must walk.
Full credit for this article is given to the author, whose name does not appear on the Witchy's Nexus Shamanism page on Facebook. You can reach it by clicking here.
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Unwanted Effects of Great Freedom
"Hi fellow nomads!
Just found this group and immediately wanted to join and introduce myself, to see if someone can relate to what I'm doing with myself. But now I realized I'm sick of my life story so I'll look for another approach. :)"
He continues......
"I'm wondering about this:
Being retired or just somehow having enough money to travel forever and not needing the home you had anymore is one thing. Sounds like a very rich life!
But, are there also nomads of the kind who simply don't have a "home" even if they would want one, and/or who don't have a source of money and are actually not really sure how they will survive more than one day/week/month at a time?
Who don't know if being a nomad is something they decided or something that just happened?
Having been homeless for 2 years in pursuit of freedom, trying to renounce things, habits, desires etc, I now find myself in a country I didn't expect to be in, with almost no money, no income, no profession, hardly any connections, no backup home to go to anywhere in the world but only temporary ones. I don't know how long I can stay here and don't know where to go next. And here's the thing: I don't mind.
I'm discovering that the one thing still scaring me is that I'm not afraid of things anymore. I'm not afraid of not achieving things or not surviving, I'm hardly not even afraid of causing others trouble anymore, which used to be a huge issue.
I can't see how to get past this. What in the world is going to motivate me to get up and do something, if I'm not afraid of any outcome?
In spirituality this kind of homelessness or freedom is often made to sound all warm and cozy, but please tell me how you actually continue to live in the world if you're not motivated by any fear? Society isn't designed for that for sure. I'm still just 24 and I don't expect to be fed for free if I just drift around like this. Yet I'm totally fine with my life and not motivated to do anything about it. What's happening?
See, it's so odd, I don't even have a problem! I'm healthy right now and not starving and about the rest time will tell. It is causing lots of anxiety though, ironically...
Absurd huh. :)
If anyone else has experienced this, please say hello, or anything you like! It's getting difficult for a part of me to relate to people because most of them are struggling so much and I'm not... so it would be nice to talk to others about it. :)
By the way I'm not suicidal so don't worry."

Taken at Qingyang gong in China, Summer 2009
I will add a couple of comments, from other couch surfers, in the comments section if you are interested. If you wish to add yours Martin will see them.
Monday, November 30, 2009
Beyond Human-Nature-Spirit Boundaries: Researching With Animate EARTH
The reader can pick and chose their own route to journey through the site, often finding that they have been doubled back onto a previously read page delibertly for a second insite.
The writer says "My aim here is to create a text with spaces for intention, together with animate Earth and/or spirit, to contribute to any reading."
She was not afraid to step outside of convention, creating the most refreshing doctorial thesis I have ever seen.
Enjoy
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
reBlog from google.com:
Finnegan Begin Again
I found this fascinating quote today:
Words of wisdom from Pakistani leader Benazir Bhutto (1953-2007):
A ship in port is safe,
but that is not what ships are for.
Nice metaphor, but here's the thing. Just by living, we are forced from our ports. You can go searching for drama or you can wait for it to amble over and find a place on your couch. Your choice. One way or another, it's coming. So here's what you must do: You must invite the unpleasantries in. Tell them to stop fogging up your windows, to get inside and to get on with things. Acknowledge them. (Really, they're like toddlers; the more you ignore them the louder they'll yell.) Give them cookies. They like that. Pat their heads and then let them go home, and when they are gone, catch your breath. Maybe have some wine. Cuz they're coming back, and they're bringing their friends.
google.com, Finnegan Begin Again
You should read the whole article.

